probably it is time now to stop and think if this is what i really want for the rest of my life
i want to believe you, but it is too unreal for me to even try convince myself that you are saying the truth. probably the truth that you are hiding from me will hurt me, which is why you are not saying it. but you know what, your lie and this almost-perfect pretense broke my heart
tired of always taking the first step; but beneath this, there is a silent voice which keeps telling me to go on. where did i even get this energy from?
back here when there is no right person whom i can talk to about this issue that is cramping up my mind right now
to love or to be loved?
this is such a mind tormenting question
fattie muackies!
how cutes! bao bao lian :p
monkey-faced! 😀
this cutesy little girl never fail to bring a smile to everyone’s face 🙂
dun test me anymore cos it really heart-wrenching to see all those stuff
these are the things that i cant control nor i can do anything about
it may seem fine to you..but to me, it is not
though i didnt say anything, deep down, i hope you knew
but apparently, it’s still down to myself…crying in silence
♥ Roma Colosseum ♥
zomggg see how pretty this thing is! shaun dear whatsapp-ed me this and i awed in delight! this is the place which i alwaysss wanna visit! the view must be sooo magnificent!
and yeps i’m flying Dubai! next week for work! it’s such a last minute arrangement that i still cant really believe it! i hope it is good learning exposure for me and i wuld not regret! the first time travelling without the family and yep a teeny weeny worried but at the same time, exciteddd! still a little procrastinating abt starting work tmr! hopefully this is brand new start!
Day 22 – “true love doesn’t mean being inseparable;
it means being separated and nothing changes”
went for lasik consultation today and came back heavy-hearted..realised that i’m nursing some eye infection (which i myself wasnt aware of) due to the over-usage of contact lens and one of my corneal is too thin for the surgery..not sure if the anti-bacteria eye drops which i’m given will help but i’m crossing my fingers real tight that miracles do happen
yes i am disappointed for sure since i always have wanted to do lasik and ditch off the specs/contacts for good! if things do not happen as how i wanted, i will have to stick to just specs for the rest of my life cos i cant even use contacts anymore (advisable)..more worried abt the eye infection for now cos it seems kinda serious from how the doc compared mine with the results of a pair of healthy eyes..shld hav heeded bf’s advice to stop contacts back that time when it starts giving problems but i was just too stubborn
so now i knw i cant complain but i just cant help it..i appeared to be fine on the front cos i didnt want anyone to worry but deep down, i’m really disappointed 😦 why things just cant happen like how it is expected to *pouts*
and it’s just aint helping that there are other worrying things which i cant even control..if i could just make these negative things more positive, tonight will definitely be a happier friday night
oh wells, still very thankful and appreciative to aunt jane who kinda spent her whole day with me ❤ from shuttling in and out of the clinic and seeing the doc tgt with me, to all the yums goodie foodie that we had and to all her time accompanying me today..nothing could have expressed my thanks but with this satisfied grateful smile 🙂
and today, 17 sept 2011, marks our 19th monthsary! though bf shaun dear isnt here in sg with me right now, i’m already looking forward to mid jan next year when he will be back to my side..missing him is definite but knowing that he’s safe and having sightseeing fun makes all this missing worthwhile ❤
Day 15: I miss you every second, every hour, everyday, everytime ❤
the daily love quotes to keep me sane:
Day 14: Not seeing you kills me
i got a job! finallyyy! no more rotting at home and no more feeling-broke days! kinda got what i had wanted and am glad abt it! though salary package is still not to what i expected..but hell not, it’s better than being jobless! time to strive to work hard and earn more moolahhh! haha the only drawback abt being employed once again, no more waiting to the wee hours at night for bf to be back to hostel so that we can talk!but we will work things out 🙂 i wuldnt bear not communicating on a daily basis!
the next major investment in my life: LASIK! booked myself a consultation session this friday and if everything goes well, it’s gonna be say BYE to contact lens and specs! eggciteddd
and woohoo! mf bf helped to buy a longchamp from paris! price is really cheaperrr than what it is selling in sg! i’m so loving him to bits ❤
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